Plugging along

I'm a third of the way done with Nano. My average word counts have been pretty good, all things considered. I broke 1k on my worst day, and I've written every day. That's an accomplishment in itself, and I need to remember it when I'm beating myself up on bad days. I've decided to take my birthday and part of Thanksgiving week off regardless of word count. If I don't break 50k by the 30th, so be it. I'll just keep plugging along.

One thing different this year is it hasn't taken over my whole life. I'm still eating well, taking care of chores, getting out most days. I do need to move more, but my standing desk is on the FedEx truck and out for delivery today, so I should be able to fix that starting tomorrow.

I had the last session with the personal trainer at the gym last night. They tried to get me to buy more--they have a special going--but I'm going to hold off. She's done a great job but I don't think I'm ready to keep doing the same thing. I need to get the mental end of it shifted some because clearly, despite her best efforts, something isn't working. I've gained a half pound of muscle since May but haven't lost much fat. The Nutribullet seems to be helping more than anything right now. I've decided to shift my focus from weight loss to health and mobility. I actually don't mind keeping the weight on as long as I can remain active and mobile as I age. I don't want to be the old lady in a rocking chair because it hurts to move. I want to be the old lady playing in the park with her grandkids and sending them postcards from Scotland. It seems to me if I focus on eating well and moving more, the weight will take care of itself. It's worth a shot.

We've started Thanksgiving prep. The Boys will be here 2 weeks from today. Vicky and Erik (the new BF--yes, it's going to be problematic) will be here the following Monday. Alex is going to spend Thanksgiving with Emma and her family. It will be the first one without him in 24 years. I'm not thinking about it. There's too much to do to get weepy right now. I knew at some point we would have holidays without our kids. That doesn't make it easier, of course, but it's a reality of life.

I think that's about all the excitement here. Time to get some words in.